When it comes to materialistic things, I wanted to achieve in my first year, I did all of them I planned before and during my first year, be it societies, blogs, chess, academic goals etc. But when it comes to things I wanted to achieve beyond materialism, I failed miserably.
1)When my Idols became my rivals: In every fresher’s story, with every success, there is guidance provided by a senior. They guide you throughout the road and help to improve you. In my journey, I was grateful to have seniors from both my department and from other departments which I got to know personally. They tried to help me throughout the road, they being the experienced ones and me being the amateur argued with them a lot throughout the process, when I got to my goal, I somehow stumbled towards a complex which made me extremely proud of my success, the arrogance towards my goals may have bought me praise from others, but when it came to those who knew me a lot and seniors which helped me, they lost a sense of respect for me and I know I will never be able to get it back from them.
2)Patience: With every goal I ticked, I without a break tried to start aiming for the next one. With no breaks in between and doing multiple things at the same time, I overworked myself. Even though the job was done, with patience and constant breaks in between goals, I could have done them with extreme comfort and with less effort rather than being a pressure cooker and getting frustrated easily.
3)Blinded with Career: With completely blind and hungry for my career, I broke a lot of friendships in my first year. I always thought being in so many friendships would only waste my time and will distract me from my career. It might be partially correct, but with every friendship I lost, I lost the support and motivation slowly and gradually and, in the end, it became very difficult to complete my goals with zero/negative support from my peers.
CONCLUSION
I am still in the wonder of where I would have ended up if I would have done the above three things perfectly. The main result was anyways finished, but it could not give the satisfaction I once craved at the beginning of my first year.